Shallow Breath
Shallow Breath
Breathe in, Breathe out
Shallow breath is all I know
I cannot remember the day when they got so shallow
That it felt
As if I was drowning.
Gasping for air
Yet every time I come up
It's never enough.
Shallow breath
I don't remember them always being so shallow
So shallow, that I felt bound.
Tied by my hands and feet
Bound down with nothing for me to do
But wish the next one will be it.
Knot in my throat
Dips down like a rollercoaster
Into the pit of my stomach
Rock bottom as the echo bounces
Throughout my body of the hollowness
That is me.
Shallow breath
The truth is the day I try
To take it in
Inhale to fill the parts of me
That stayed hidden
for so many years.
As air filles up my lungs
it feels it's traveling through my body,
Every pulse the air
Getting deeper
and deeper
into me.
Parts of me that were in the dark,
Behind locked doors
Keys hidden away
It pounds so hard
That it's deafening.
Shallow breath
As I exhale and push away
The force to keep it hidden
But it's too late
The lights have been lit
With a small gust, it came to blow
Away the web of lies
I tell myself.
Shallow Breath
As it leaves my body,
My lung slowly starts to deflate
As I feel the air leave my body
The knot in my throat
is harder than ever.
The pit in my stomach turns
To churn out the last of the air.
As the last bit leaves my lips
I feel myself overcome
It quivers and before I know it
I feel the wet drop down my cheek.
Shallow Breath
As I try to hold my breathe
Trying to pause time
To keep myself from being consumed
I find out too late
That I am exposed
And I cannot go back
The gate was opened
Flooding everything in its path
With that every candle lit
Throughout my soul
As if to burn down
this invisible prison.
As I sit exposed
To myself
Parts of me that I lost
Parts I did not recognize
Parts of me I had forgotten
Exposed.
Alone.
Surrounded.
Until I can do nothing else
But stare into their eyes
And hold on to their hands.
Shallow Breath
And then I remember
The exact day
My breath shallowed.
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